The fact of the matter is I am no longer going to have any
excuses/reasons/rationale to fall back on; I am fluent in the language,
can legally work, am familiar with the culture and customs and we are
going to have a mortgage, car loans and bills to pay. Upon our return
to Houston I am going to have to get a "real job."
My
greatest apprehension is not having to work but rather it is the loss of
freedom and flexibility. I have often considered myself as being
self-employed; there always is something to do but I have flexibility to
do it when/how I want. It is the thought of losing this freedom and
being bound by a clock that does not appeal to me. I can relate to
business owners and self-employed people who say how much they love what
they do and that they could never go back to working for.
My
mind is flooded with questions. Do I go back to teaching? If I go
back to teaching how likely are the schools going to be to hire me after
not being full-time in a classroom in quite some time? Should I pursue
a different career? What kind of career? Is there something I could
do that would provide a nice income and still allow me to have the
freedom I have become acclimated to? Time, prayer and the counsel of
family and friends will be my guide.
In the spirit of
jocularity my wife and I often say we still don't know what we want to
be when we grow up. I feel like I am approaching a fork in the road in
my life but as the philosophy Yogi Berra once said, "When you come to a
fork in the road, take it."
You are going to miss being a trailing husband!
ReplyDelete